sebastian.

As he listened to his soon to be fiance’s words, Sebastian was stuck with a smile on his face because everything Blaine said mesmerized him. So much so. This. All of this. It was theirs to make the best out of. ❝It’s definitely not a delusion, love. Trust me when I say that. I love you so much and you don’t have to say thank you anymore for any of this. Got it? I’ve heard it about a hundred times during this trip already and as happy as it makes me to know you’re thankful… You just deserve this so much. You’re such a star, Blaine. My star. I’m so proud of what you’ve accomplished these past couple years. We love each other, of course. But you and me, we’re on this journey together of learning to love ourselves too. You’ve helped me so much with loving myself and feeling like the only thing I have to be is me around you… You’ve never made me change. And when I look at you I know you’re still insecure in there at times. I know you feel small sometimes. But to me, you are so far from small. You’re the biggest, brightest star in the sky, actually. My love for you… As lame as it sounds, it’s hard for me to put it into words.❞ he puts a pause in his speech, giving an endearing smile before reaching across the table to hold onto Blaine’s free hand. ❝And… Now that we’re here, in Paris… And I’m looking into your eyes I can’t help but have all these thoughts and feelings hit me at once.❞ Sebastian looks out at the view to see the moonlight beaming down on the city. Glancing back at Blaine with love and inspiration in his eyes. He was going to lead the love of his life to the Eiffel tower in a few minutes to ask the big question and his heart was racing. Blaine was still waiting to wake up? This might do the trick.

“I’m sorry. I’m,” and he fell silent when Sebastian stole his tongue.  Blaine listened because that was all he could do as his heart began to pound and he felt that dizzying sensation that Sebastian was so skilled at bringing out of him at any given moment make his chest feel so light he might float away.  His eyes grow softer by the syllable until tears gather at his eyelashes. He wasn’t expecting all that from a repeat of ‘thank you’.  His fork drops and he quickly buries his hands into his lap underneath the table.  This moment.  This is one he’ll never forget.  The way Sebastian was looking at him–he’s seen it before.  Plenty of times.  And it never ceases to fill him with wonder how one person could look at him like that and mean every emotion that filled Sebastian’s green eyes.  Blaine’s is nothing short of fascination and bewilderment.  He loves him more than Sebastian might ever know because there aren’t words to say or actions to give that could ever encompass the love that Blaine has for him.  Yet–he needs to say something. Anything besides sitting here ready to cry and blinking rapidly to keep from doing it so they don’t cause a scene.  Kicking himself into motion–Blaine draws in an uneven breath and uses it to whisper the first thing that comes to mind.  “Every time I think ‘this is it, I can’t love him anymore than I do right now’–you always manage to surprise me by proving to me that I can. Sebastian, you changed my life.  From the minute you walked into it.  You give me compassion and understanding.  You support me.  All of me.  And I don’t think I’d ever see the world the same without you.  I love you.  I love you so much..  Even when you make me want to start crying in a restaurant full of people.  Which is totally unfair,” he grins because if he doesn’t do that?  The tears he blinked away are going to come back.