rachel.

A part
of Rachel wondered whether Blaine was just saying these things so she wouldn´t
feel worse about herself. She didn´t want to think that he was lying, but
Blaine was a kind soul who´d never actually call her a burden. She herself,
however, felt like one, because there was nothing she could do to control the
overwhelming grief she was struck by. Losing Finn had felt like the ground
being pulled from under her feet and ever since then she had been falling. Most
of the days she managed to put on a brave face and a smile, but whenever she
came home the façade crumbled rather quickly.

Having
Blaine here was helping though, and Kurt too of course, but he was just as
affected by this like Rachel was and sometimes it helped to hug him, but sometimes
it made things worse.

She
kept her eyes on the tv, focusing on the way he was playing with her hair,
slowly relaxing. The tightness in her chest was slowly dissolving and at his
words she almost smiled. “Mhm…my hair is amazing,” Rachel nodded. “Yours is
pretty nice too, though you do use a bit too much gel,” She then teased.

Alternating between the comb and his fingers running through her hair, Blaine found comfort in the cool, silky strands when their long lengths glided through it.  This was better than laying in bed awake, staring at the ceiling and wondering how he was going to piece the two people he loved so deeply back together.  Rachel was giving him a way out of his thoughts and she had no clue on how much he appreciated it.  He knew her well enough to know she still felt like he was going too far out of his way.  She couldn’t be any more wrong. He’d sit here for hours if she’d let him.  You know?  Between checking in to make sure Kurt was still asleep and not doing exactly what she was saving him from.

Oh God.  They were going to be okay.  Weren’t they?  Somehow.  Someway.  There was going to come a time where all of them could laugh again without wondering if they should feel guilty about it?  How was he supposed to go back to Lima when his heart, mind and soul was stuck right here?  Where he was needed most.  He made a plan to push his flight back as far as he could as soon as the sun came up.

Seeing a tiny smile from her made his heart skip a beat.  That was all he needed to know he was making the right decisions.  Lima could stay in Lima.  It’d be waiting for him when he decided to go back and that was okay.  I’ll figure out the rest later.  Grinning lightly, he danced the tips of his fingers across her forehead.  Then let the edge of his pointer drag down the bridge of her nose to the very end.  Tap, tap.  “There’s never enough gel when it comes to my hair.  Or is it?  Are you saying I should lay off a little, Miss Berry?  I think..I mean..maybe I can?”