He had dreamed of their lips meeting for so long. For Blaine Anderson to finally just admit that there was something there. That Sebastian wasn’t a lone wolf looking in the forest of a fantasy that was nothing. He knew it wasn’t really nothing. Sebastian could pick up on things as such, he knew when a chemistry was rising. He also knew when one was melting. && though he had done fucked up things, using Hunter as a jealousy tool, or meddling in between Blaine && Kurt— through all of those cruel actions, he was doing it for love. Love can blind someone, make them feel as if they are walking through a dark hallway, only a candlelight at the end. Sebastian had been stepping towards that candlelight this whole time. Just to have the boy he had been in love with since he first laid eyes on him. Sebastian hated cliche things, like love at first sight. He hated tradition, && love in general terrified him. But with Blaine, that was all pushed away. The artificial ego he used to boost himself as nothing more than a cold hearted snake melted all away when he looked in those hazel eyes. Things were different with Blaine Anderson. && that’s why he has never gave up on making him his.
He would be a new man for Blaine, he would show all of him; who he truly was underneath the devious actions. && that is exactly why Sebastian held the way their lips met for longer. He didn’t make it sloppy, or sexual. It was a passionate kiss full of emotion. One that said ‘please stay’. As he felt fingers clench onto his tie, he intensified the kiss into a deeper shade of words through body language. This was so much louder than words. Sebastian was falling into a trance of lost in time. Nothing else mattered now, nobody that may pass by even existed to him in this time. It was like the sun && moon rose && set a million times. It was like a drug he only could fantasize for so long, but this was finally it. He was finally kissing Blaine Anderson. It lasted for a moment longer until Sebastian just pulled away the slightest, keeping his lips against Blaine’s. Eyes stayed half shut, features soft as he rose a hand to the others cheek. Every move was delicate. Two fingers rubbed against Blaine’s skin slowly && lovingly, noses touching. Voice was genuine. “ You know how hard it is for me to make a proper apology… Just say that I can call you mine, Blaine. “
Ah, ok. This was what Sebastian’s lips felt like? Blaine could feel every part of him melt and yield to the kiss. His fist inched over enough that it could close completely around Sebastian’s tie using it as the only means he had to stay tethered to something solid enough to ground him. He needed that source of gravity. Anything that would hold him steady and keep a shred of common sense in him that would time the kiss to prevent it from becoming something so overwhelming that too much of him might bleed out he couldn’t take back once he fully convinced himself he needed to be the one to pull away. That’s how he went into the kiss. Holding onto a frame of mind that he’d give in because he couldn’t stand fighting the need he felt for it anymore. But only a little bit. Only enough that he could soothe the aching hunger inside both of them with a sample of what could be while preventing the disaster that might happen if he screwed up again. Losing Sebastian wasn’t an option. If he could only give them a few feet while playing pretend that it was enough to last them for miles? They were both pretty good liars to themselves up to this point so it wouldn’t be that horrible of a stretch for them to accomplish. Or so he told himself over and over in those first few brushes of skin on his mouth and puffs of warm breath on his cheek. His weight began to hang from that strip of fabric, pulling the taller boy down as he lifted up and— Sebastian’s tie fell from his fingers. The hold he wrapped around Sebastian’s shoulders was firm as he tilted his head and cracked his eyes partially open flicking a glance veiled partially by long, black lashes up to Sebastian’s softened features. The view stole his breath. Hello. It’s nice to meet you.. Where have you been all this time?
Sebastian didn’t do anything different in the seconds that passed but something between them changed on Blaine’s end. There wasn’t anymore pause. Or a tether tied to the tips of his shoes to keep him earthbound and be their anchor. Any amount of hesitation was gone and he let emotion leak into the kiss that had him choking on a whimper of letting go. Want me! I’ll stay if you ask me to! –his kiss screamed it and the way he cupped the back of Sebastian’s head with the tips of his fingers carding against his scalp begged him just as desperately. When Sebastian pulled back, he didn’t budge. Blaine’s tongue swept between their lips, licking across his own and touching Sebastian’s by default causing him to shudder at the taste. Finally, two slits of hazel peeked into a sea of green. Sebastian was hinging on an answer. Blaine’s gentle smile fell as a rock tugged his stomach to the floor. What he wanted and what he should do –two opposite things– flooded his mind. His thoughts jumped too far forward to an ending he doomed them to in seconds. It was a mistake, a slip of guilty-by-default that followed him since New York. Blaine’s throat went tight. A bitter flavor hit the back of his tongue. Even then? He held onto Sebastian and leaned until their noses docked with one another, kept his jaw bared for Sebastian’s touch and ran his fingertips along the other’s neck. “Sebastian,” he whispered, chest sinking as he traced the bridge of Sebastian’s nose with the edge of his. “I can’t let you do that. I want to. God I want to. But–I’m so scared I’ll ruin something..someone else I lo—care about. I’m not ready to risk that again. I’m sorry. I’m a horrible person, Seb. Please don’t hate me–but if you do? I’m really,” he gritted his teeth and rolled his eyes, “really good at giving someone a reason to.” His breath hitched, squinted eyes contradicted everything coming out of his mouth by pleading with Sebastian not to listen. To call him out. So much of him didn’t want to believe that about himself. But it was true. Right? Only awful people did what he did.. “I am trying so,” a frustrated scoff ghosted his lips over Seb’s mouth and he almost listened to his body yelling the want to fall right back into kissing him to prove how much he actually wanted what he was saying couldn’t happen, “hard not to give you an even bigger one.”
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