finn.

( mssg » blaine | sent ) If you just need someone to talk to, I’m here with opening ears.
( mssg » blaine | sent )  You just need some time, dude. Sort everything out. Figure out what you
need to figure out.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) Yeah, sure. Uh..not too sure on that way. Like you said, you can make it a thing though.

( mssg » finn | sent ) I understand what you’re saying but the problem is?  I feel like I have it all sorted out and I’m going to be stuck forever regretting everything.  Because this mistake is too big to take back no matter how guilty or sorry I am.  Or crystal clear everything is now.

( mssg » finn | sent ) What am I supposed to do about that?
( mssg » finn | sent ) Thank you, Finn.  I could use a face to face friend right now.  Apology soda is a go.  I could even make it an apology dinner.  Want to meet at Breadstix instead?

finn.

( mssg » blaine | sent ) It’s okay. Don’t worry about it.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) I was just wanting to know if there was anything that I can do to help.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) If you need someone to hold the punching bag, I’m down.

( mssg » finn | sent ) I don’t know what to ask for.  I’ve just never felt this lost before.
( mssg » finn | sent ) Thanks for the offer.  One second I feel like beating the hell out of one. The next, I’ve never imagined how heavy my hands and the rest of me could feel.
( mssg » finn | sent ) Can we just go out for coffee?  I’ll buy you any soda you want.  Is an apology soda a thing?  If not, I owe you one and I’m making it a thing now.

meme continuation. @footballanduniforms

( mssg » finn | sent ) I’m sorry I bit your head off.  

I know you’re only trying to help.

( mssg » finn | sent )

I know it’s not your fault and you’ve got your own things going on.  You don’t need my jumping down your throat added to the list.
( mssg » finn | sent ) But I can’t just “calm down”.  Maybe it’s better if I just go for another walk.  Before I say something else I’ll end up regretting.

finn.

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 You really think if I follow through with this
plan that things will start looking up ? 

Finn glanced to the side, the idea seemed pretty rad
in theory…but could he really pull it off?

❝ I just don’t want to screw anything up. 

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“It can’t hurt to try–can it?  As long as you’re giving
it your best shot?” Blaine leaned forward and gave
Finn’s knee a solid pat.  “I mean–we could say you
have nothing to lose and everything to gain but that
sounds like you’ve reached rock bottom.” That didn’t
come out like he wanted it to when he heard it in his
head.  Um–one more knee pat would do.  So he did
that and purposefully quirked his lips into a hopeful
grin, “We’re a long way from that.  I promise to never
let you get there.  I say–do it–I got your back.”

@unsuspectinghearts said: “who the hell did this to you?” (for finn! yay!)

hurt meme. aka bring on the pain

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He didn’t hear Finn coming into the locker room where he was hunched on the bench, forearms propped across his legs and using all his concentration to force his hands to stop shaking.  A decent sized bruise ran up his neck. Upon closer inspection the blotchy colors were made up of four individual marks about as far apart as fingertips. Nothing a high collared shirt and a bowtie wouldn’t cover up.  Which he planned on doing after a shower. Hearing the question–he bolted upright and tugged his jacket collar higher.  “Finn,” nothing like a smile to cover how rattled he was–right?  “Just a sparring match that got a out of hand,” he lied, “Nothing to worry about.”

finn.

“I mean… Okay, I get that. But I just… I don’t know, man. I’m focused more on glee these days and not college and… I haven’t exactly… Applied. Anywhere.”

“Wait.  Finn.  What?  You haven’t applied–anywhere?  I know we’re busy but–.  Not a single school?  Sorry.  I didn’t mean to sound lecture-y about spending time together.  I definitely don’t want to sound that way now but–I think that needs to start sooner rather than later?  Especially if you’re planning on going to New York City.  Um.  You’re still planning that–aren’t you?”

did you just pick me up?

Finn had been lying in the living for a while watching television. He had taken the opportunity of being alone to turn the living room in his cave and hibernate there for late night movie sessions. He was perfectly comfortable sitting on the couch in his pajama bottoms and his feet propped up on the coffee table as he drunk a few beers. He raked his fingers through his hair then stretched his legs out as he slouched down more. He was on his sixth exploitation movie and he was well into his much need marathon when he swore he could hear something outside on the porch. He looked toward the door and stood up carefully, the last thing he wanted was to be murdered in Captain America pajama pants. Finn grabbed a vase and walked over to the door and looked through the peep hole when he saw someone lying on the ground. He murmured under his breath and sat the vase down so he could open the door and it was Blaine. Blaine “Dapper” Anderson on his ass.

“What the hell are you doing out here, dude?” Finn didn’t mean to sound so irritated but he was confused and he was a little annoyed. He didn’t expect anyone to just show up at his place. Well, his mom’s place but while she was out of town with Burt it his place. At least until they got back. He reached down and pulled Blaine up then lifted him from the ground with a grunt. Finn walked into the house and kicked the door shut. He walked into the living room and unceremoniously dropped Blaine into the recliner then he sat down and looked at him, shaking his head. “Are you drunk?”

Yeah–laying on a hard, cold surface wasn’t the most comfortable but the chill  on his cheek felt good.  Blaine let his eyes close because laying still made the world start to spin.  Losing track of time is easy to someone as hammered as Blaine was. How long ago did he knock on the door? A few minutes?  Less?  Hours ago was what it seemed.  Building up the mind to move? Gonna take longer than that.  A boat shoed foot slid several inches.  See?  Movement!  The building blocks to getting up were already being laid.  Sooner or later?  He’d get there!  God, how’d he end up this bad off?  Too many thoughts and even more liquor to be drank.  That’s how.  No refresher course needed but he gave himself one anyway.  Finn’s voice tugged him from the road he nearly lead himself down.  The exact one he swallowed so much alcohol to avoid.

One eye cracked open and he lifted a hand, palm out and crooked fingers waving a plea.  “It’s not what it looks like.”  What the hell else could it be?  Not that he had time to answer!  Strong arms wrapped around his body, gravity shifted and he was hoisted off the ground.  Warmth surrounded him once he was inside, feet kicking for grounding that they just couldn’t get the entire way until he gave up about four feet from the chair.  Blaine went down like a marionette with the strings cut landing in whatever position his limbs went when Finn plopped him.  A leg cocked out, one bent and hands cupped together in his lap.  His head fit perfectly into the crease of the side and back of the chair.  Half-shut eyes wandered his stare over to the confused man–mouth opening and closing around silent words.  Shaking his head no–he went the opposite route with what he said, “Yeah.  I think I am.”  He lifted his hand and pinched his thumb and pointer together, nose scrunched in a ‘no big deal’ cringe.  “Ah–I–mean a little.  Hi. Thanks for bringing me in–it wasn’t very comfortable on your porch.”

finn.

“Okay, but between getting ready for Nationals and Graduation, why does Mr. Schue think some of us have time for more duets?”

“I know it’s crazy busy for a lot of you right now and this might be the last thing you want to think about but–.  I thought we should be focusing on Nationals weeks ago but then I really thought about it.  I don’t know, Finn?  Maybe he just wants to make sure we squeeze as many of these moments in before Nationals takes the spotlight and Graduation gets here?”

🍷

SEND A 🍷 FOR MY MUSE TO SHOW UP DRUNK AT YOUR MUSE’S DOOR.
@independentlyfinnhudson

White knuckle grip on the doorframe?  Check.  Gushing apology prepared for Finn considering the time?  Double–triple check.  All he had to do was knock on the door but going through with it required a courage that the liquid form of it was seriously starting to run out.  The longer he debated if he should have told the guy to drop him off down the block–apparently a ride home from the bar equalled getting a number shoved into his lap and more awkwardness than he could cope with for another fifteen minutes to his aunt’s house?  Blaine was beginning to realize that this was more than a bad idea.  It was a horrible one.  

There wasn’t any promise that Finn would appreciate him being here.  He wouldn’t blame him if he didn’t.  One huge relief was Burt and Carol were gone.  He knew by Rachel telling them to have a safe trip on Facebook and–like always–Burt’s message was half typed before he sent it on accident and forgot that editing was a thing.  Kurt and he both tried to teach the man how to work social media before he left for D.C. the first time but it was sort of like–how did Kurt say it?  ‘Teaching a caveman how to work fire in the pouring rain.’  The memory hitched his shoulders and caused his head to bow so far forward that his forehead plastered itself against the door. 

Blaine swayed once, twice, clutched the doorframe harder to keep from falling completely over. and wouldn’t you know it?  Laughed sadly in spite of the tears in his eyes.  A lightly curled fist swung blindly to knock on the door and gravity won when one rap had him off balance and his butt bounced on the cement.  To hell with it.  He’d just stay there and Finn wasn’t home?  Or told him to leave and shut the door?  Maybe a nap in the cold would sober him up some.  Plus? It’d serve him right.  Yet one more night added to the string of poor life choices under his belt. Wonderful. Perfect.  Utterly freaking abysmal.

finn.

(txt >> Blaine) Why are you naked? 
(txt >> Blaine) There’s a giant 7 on the sign outside…there’s a bar 
(txt >> Blaine) Bar across from the 7 
(txt >> Blaine) Don’t bring Kurt. Or Coffee. 

( mssg » finn | sentWoah?  I’m not naked!  I’m in my pajamas!  Or was?  They were really comfortable, by the way?  I’m dressed now though.

( mssg » finn | sentGot it.  I know where you are.  Don’t wander too far off
( mssg » finn | sent ) Okay.  No Kurt or coffee.  We’ll get food once I get to you.  No if’s and’s or but’s.

( mssg » finn | sent ) Wow!!  I’m awake!  It’s /freaking/ cold out!  What are you doing out here at this hour drunk?