a muse’s confessions

👻- what memory haunts them the most

I would say that since Season 2 is my default verse, at that point in time, it would be the fact that he feels responsible for the boy who he asked to the dance being hurt.  Him and this other kid were the only out people in that school and Blaine was the one to ask him to Sadie Hawkins.  While the ignorance of the boys who jumped them and ‘beat the crap outta them’ is to blame, Blaine and his nature would not see it that way.  He took the responsibility of being the one to initiate such a bold move for the two of them.  I can imagine that after the bullying he talks about, that boy underwent the same bullying and might’ve had hesitations, but for Blaine it was a way to stand up, have faith that they could do this and maybe change people’s minds, and have the courage to enjoy themselves in spite of the awful things they were going through.  They went and ended up in the hospital for Blaine’s hopefulness and he feels awful that the boy will be stuck with the same doubt and nightmares that he has because of it.

There’s no other mention of that boy in the entire series (though sometimes I like to headcanon that his name was Eli and a couple years later might’ve talked again..ahem) and with the way Blaine hangs onto people he cares about?  It must have created a deep enough rift between them that they never see one another again after Blaine transfers.  Though I have about a dozen reasons and theories why that happened in my head if anyone’s interested to chat about it!