Blaineās fingers lightly toyed with a strand of dark hair on the side of Elliottās head as he laid in bed beside his softly breathing boyfriend.Ā Waking up less than ten minutes ago to the sight of snow falling heavily outside the window–he checked his phone and just as he guessed?Ā School was cancelled for the day due to the weather.Ā An email would be sent later to confirm what was happening the next morning.Ā Nowhere to go.Ā Ā No rush to be in?
Suddenly, with a free schedule and a freaking blizzard outside?Ā Lounging inside the warm blankets snuggled up to an even warmer Elliott was the best idea ever.Ā Not wanting him to miss the flurry of snow (and admittedly, the house was too quiet with him asleep..plus..since it was Elliottās usual day off..they had all the time in the world..some kisses would be a great way to start it?), Blaine scooted back down until his nose touched Elliottās.Ā Stealing another minute or two to admire him from this angle, he gently let the cool silken strand slip from his fingertip and rested his palm on the otherās cheek instead.
Blaine kissed him not once but twice before whispering with a grin as one blue eye cracked open,Ā āGood morning, handsome.Ā Guess what?Ā Schoolās been cancelled.ā
Blaine couldnāt understand why he felt so nervous.Ā Sitting on the edge of his bed staring at his phone until it went black, he wondered what he and Sam were that the other boy couldnāt explain it over texts.Ā The fact that he felt he had to drive here, in the middle of the night, to tell him the details?Ā Didnāt have to be a mind reader to know that the details meant something more than a simple conversation over phone screens tapped out by their fingertips.Ā Sam wanted to put his face, his voice and his presence behind the words.Ā Ā
What did he forget..? Ā How much..?
Frustrated at himself–Blaineās feet began rapidly bobbing up and down, heels never touching the ground.Ā Like the beating of rabbitās feet without the hop. Knees bouncing as he tossed his phone on the bed and pressed the heels of his palms against them, his arms rattled as his fingers curled backwards stopping when their tips touched the tops of his palms.Ā Shutting his eyes and burrowing his brows, he tried to think.Ā Come up with anything.Ā Anything at all.Ā Come on..please?Ā All he ended up with for his efforts was the beginning of a tension headache and sore ankles.Ā How long did it take to drive from Samās house to Dalton?Ā When would he be here?Ā Should he change?Ā In the end, he was still sitting right where he was when he heard the knock on the door.
Sam hugged him so tight he couldnāt breathe.Ā Blaine rushed to catch up and managed to hug him back, albeit from an awkward angle, and he watched as Sam changed a shade healthier because he breathed for the first time since he walked through the door.Ā Then, it was Blaineās turn to lose his breath.Ā With every word he listened to, Blaineās gaze softened. A sad smile pouted his bottom lip into his upper but he kept quiet and listened searching through the words like they were a light inside the fog wishing that he could put together more than imagined pictures he painted in his mindās eye as Sam narrated a past that was just gone.Ā His heart was beating so fast, faster.Ā Ā
The gut instinct to crawl from the pillows he rested on and scootch down the bed until he was sitting back on his heels in front of Sam won over and by the time Sam finished, Blaine was taking his hand and pulling it into his lap trying to comfort him the only way he knew how.Ā He might not remember what Sam said.Ā He maybe even laughed at the park story.Ā But Blaine knew it had to hurt Sam that he didnāt connect any of it together. Only to the person telling the tales.Ā Smiling again, he shook his head finding it silly that he would have thought they were anything but..Ā Ā āFriends then?Ā We were friends.Ā Sounds like we really kept everyone on their toes.Ā I do like Blam, though.Ā Who came up with that?āĀ Ā
A crooked grin and he covered the top of Samās hand with his free one capturing it completely as he tucked his chin towards his collar and studied Samās expression to see if this was all too much.Ā Ā āIām trying.Ā For you.Ā For everyone.Ā For me.Ā Iām trying so hard. Thank you for this?Ā Tell me everything.Ā I donāt care how long it takes.Ā Even the bad stuff, if there was bad stuff. Like.Ā If we had fights.Ā Though you seem hard to want to fight with.Ā Please donāt hold anything in, okay?Ā Everyone tries to soften things, you know?Ā Make it so Iām not overwhelmed or whatever.āĀ He shrugged helplessly.Ā Ā āBut the bad part is?Ā What theyāre holding in, when I see them do it?Ā Thatās the worst..Ā Ironic, isnāt it?ā
( text : blaine Ā ā» Ā delivered) Ā one year we may be blessed by an easter miracle and heāll be at some business retreat in the middle of nowhere and we can scrap the formal dinner altogether. ( text : blaine Ā ā» Ā delivered) Ā justin. timberlake. blaine. theĀ jt! his people are way scarier than your people. ( text : blaine Ā ā» Ā delivered) Ā i think weāre beyond the karaoke incident ofĀ ā03. my trust has been rebuilt. ( text : blaine Ā ā» Ā delivered) Ā itās los angeles. people crash into things all the time. itās like a right of passage. are you really an actor in hollywood if you havenāt fought a few perfectly placed trees? (the answer is no.) ( text : blaine Ā ā» Ā delivered) Ā weāll see. he has to pass the cooper test.Ā ( text : blaine Ā ā» Ā delivered)Ā Ā hey, blaine. listen.Ā ( text : blaine Ā ā» Ā delivered) Ā listen. ( text : blaine Ā ā» Ā delivered) Ā L I S T E N. ( text : blaine Ā ā» Ā delivered)Ā or read. whatever. ( text : blaine Ā ā» Ā delivered)Ā as long as youāre happy, then who the hell cares? iām not dad. i donāt give a crap about the prestige. just the fact youāre safe and happy. dalton. whatever school youāre at now that i totally know the name of but donāt want to say the name of because of those pesky fbi agents in the phone camera⦠theyāre both schools. why the hell would i be disappointed in you making a choice?Ā
( mssg Ā» cooper | sent ) Come on… Please? ( mssg Ā» cooper | sent ) Okay.Ā Iām listening. ( mssg Ā» cooper | sent ) Um.Ā Reading.Ā Iām reading and listening.Ā I promise. ( mssg Ā» cooper | sent ) As strange as that advice was towards the end?Ā Thank you so much. ( mssg Ā» cooper | sent )
I know I donāt really say it a lot and our relationship really isnāt the kind where we have many talks like this..but..Iāve been really scared I might be letting you down.Ā ( mssg Ā» cooper | sent )
Or disappointing you after all that work you helped with to get them to let me in immediately.
( mssg Ā» cooper | sent ) I only want to make sure that you donāt feel like I didnāt appreciate all of your hard work.Ā Because I know what you did.Ā I know a lot of it was your follow up.Ā Your in person pressure.Ā Ā ( mssg Ā» cooper | sent ) Iāll never forget that.Ā I never would have left if it wasnāt for Kurt.Ā Heās been through so much.Ā ( mssg Ā» cooper | sent )
If this can give him one solid good year of school for once in his life? Saying no to that isnāt something I could do, you know?
āExactly.ā he agreed.Ā āSmall steps.Ā Little things.ā he grinned, cocking his head.Ā āItās hard when youāre, you know, not subtle about who you are. I always loved glittery eyeliner and being as big of a person as I can be. Iām not going to shrink myself to fit other peopleās expectations. Never wanted to be that person. It meant I got my ass kicked a lot in high school but Carter was having none of it. Taught me how to fight.ā he admitted.Ā āOf course, Carter could still beat my ass even though Iām a lot bigger then her now.ā
āIt pays to have a badass older sister though.ā he laughed, shaking his head.Ā āSheās an actual FBI agent and not just a consultant like myself.ā Jason leaned down to brush his lips across the kids knuckles.Ā āMy sister would kill me if I didnātĀ ākiss it betterā as you say. How about a good old fashioned american diner? I want bad meatloaf.ā
āYou shouldnāt.Ā Remaining true to yourself is the only way youāre ever going to find people who truly appreciate who you are.Ā Iām glad you decided that you wouldnāt bend for anyone.Ā It takes a strong person to do that,ā he stopped abruptly when Jason mentioned being beat up in high school.Ā An air of those words hitting close to home thickened around him.Ā A sympathy born of being there softened his eyes.Ā An apology was on the tip of his tongue but he swallowed it down like a bitter pill rather than drudge through theĀ āItās okay, it made me stronger..so I guess thereās that.ā awkwardness that always followed after finding someone whoās been there.
āIām glad you have someone to keep you in line then,ā he joked having took the change of subject and running with it as fast as possible towards a lighter tone of conversation.Ā Ā āI think we all need one of those, hm?Ā I think mine is my best friend. Poor guy is stuck reminding me to always strive to be a…,ā his breath hitched when an unexpected brush of lips ran across his knuckles.Ā The sensation tripled from the bruises caused his heart to skip a beat.Ā āThank you,ā he whispered blinking to get rid of his dazed expression.Ā Ā āMeatloaf?Ā I–yeah.Ā Youāre making it far too easy but if thatās your choice?Ā Meatloaf it is.Ā Oh!Ā Right!Ā They were leaving!Ā Ā āWe can walk.Ā Iām only a few blocks down the street and the marketās on the way.āĀ One last smile and Blaine took the lead, more than ready to get out of there for the rest of the night.
Ā Ā Ā Oh this was TOO GOOD to be true. One song blended into the next and Sebastian sat in the shadows, smirking into his glass as an hour melted by like seconds. It had been a while since a smile like that had lit up his face, but there was something undeniable about knowing when the winds were blowing in your favor. Sebastian Smythe was at the peak of a lucky streak but this reallyĀ took the cake. Blaine fucking Anderson after all these years.
Ā Ā Ā Ā This was undoubtedly a peak post-Dalton fantasy while wrapped up in the throws of an undeniable string of regret that even Sebastian couldnāt fully avoid. Years later, walking into a smokey piano bar and finding none other than Blaine himself sitting back, drinking away his sorrows after that fucking ice queen eventually tossed him to the curb for whatever new life force he could leach off of and infect with his particular strain of gay.
Ā Ā Ā They would, of course, hit it off and Sebastian could put to rest the What Ifās that befell every fucking time something blew up in his face and left him thinking of another life he could have been living. It was stupid, and he knew it was fucking ridiculous, but he suspected everybody at some point in their life had that One That Got Away. His had resurfaced but it wasnāt in the form of a post-day from hell existential unwind found only at the bottom of a bottle or joint⦠It was in the flesh and fuck if it didnāt make him feel some sort of way.
Ā Ā Ā āWell,ā Sebastian began, stepping out of the shadows with a carelessly discarded glass that went on top of the piano,Ā purely so he could start a slow clap, head shaking still in incredulous disbelief. The lights were slipping away and Blaine had finally backed away from his performance after an undeniably pleased round of applause.Ā āIām really hoping after treating me to a performance likeĀ thatĀ youāre gonna at least let me buy you a drink or two.āĀ
Ā Ā Sebastianās hands stilled, though they splayed out in muted disbelief before him as his eyes ran over Blaineās face (then once down his body) as if he hadnāt been watching intently, uninterrupted for the last hour.Ā āGod,Ā itās been a longĀ time, Killer. You⦠look incredible.ā IncredibleĀ sounded an awful lot likeĀ āfucking out of this worldā, laden with a slow burn passion that would have easily had Blaine spread out underneath him fulfilling that High School Fantasy if he had anything to do with it. An hour worth of stage worthy foreplay, Blaineās voice consuming him like an intoxicating and undeniable haze that left him feeling seventeen again.Ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Up close with his full attention, he could make out what the distance had failed to fully grant him. Time had treated Blaine well and though he seemed void of something very distinctly Anderson, it was replaced with something just as enticingĀ though. It looked like what had once been tightly wound was slowly loosened over times, finally stepping into himself or who he was meant to be. But Sebastian had lived among the Beat Down By Life brigade. While his lucky streak failed to end he was no stranger to that look.Ā āAnd this?ā Sebastian motioned to Blaine and the piano in disbelief, as if the words had been stolen from his mouth for a brief moment.Ā āThat just fulfilledĀ at leastĀ three different fantasies all at once.ā He teased, that signature Smythe grin coming to pull that bashful school boy back to the surface if he still existed underneath this Shadow Blaine.Ā āBut Iām willing to bet we can add to that count if youāre off the clock.ā And willing to take him up on that drink offer.Ā āWhatād you say, B?ā
Applause came like a wave drowning out the last few notes of his final song.Ā Tonight he sent the crowd away with one of their old favorites.Ā You could never go wrong with Billy Joel in this town.Ā It pleased the locals and tourists alike.Ā Those regulars that came in week after week to unwind and enjoy their neers off the beaten path of touristy, overpriced bars always hummed along.Ā Even sang if they were buzzed enough.Ā Proof to Blaine that he was doing something right every time he sang about their beloved city being a state of mind.Ā Deflating shoulders signaled he was done, a huff of a smile aimed at long fingers resting against ivory was the rev up for the one he gave towards the crowd.Ā Ā
An appreciated wave and a thank you mouthed over the sound of their hands clapping together gave his gratitude for their enjoyment.Ā After all.Ā They were his company for the night.Ā And they paid the bills since he tapered off using the money he had in the bank from back home.Ā His tip jar was full, a drink was waiting for him at the bar, and Joe would have something to munch on ready in a few minutes.Ā Lickity-split.Ā Jusss wait-a minute, Blainey.Ā Cominā riiight up!Ā Followed by a roll blue of weathered eyes still sparkling with happiness as the old man gave him gruff about eating too much rabbit food and not enough āreal stuffā.Ā Out of love, right?Ā Always.
All things considered?Ā Not a bad way to end his night.Ā Even if it was exactly the same as last night and the night before that.Ā Predictability had itās bonuses in spite of itās potential for boredom.Ā Considering his past and what brought him here?Ā Bored wasnāt too horrible of a thing to be.Ā He was just about ready to slide the cover over the keys when a voice he could never forget caught him off guard.Ā The heavy wood slid back to itās open position with a thud as surprised hazel darted towards the source.Ā First landing on the glass and then following it up an extremely long arm to a face that made his lips part and brows jut up at the sight.
No way.Ā Sebastian Smythe.Ā Here.Ā In a tiny piano bar in Little Italy.Ā So far off the path that Blaine was sure no one he knew would ever run into him here.Ā Part of the reason heād landed in this part of town to begin with.Ā The distance between here and Broadway meant he was all but secluded from chance run-ins withā¦well..people.Ā But Sebastian wasnāt part of that plan.Ā Blaine had figured this was a face heād lost track of.Ā Only to see in print and in distant memories of a forever ago.
Yet.Ā Here he was.Ā Blaine was stunned speechless, staring like a deer-caught-in-the-headlights trying to make his mouth and brain connect so words might happen.Ā āSebastian?Ā Hey.Ā Hi.Ā You lookāwow.āĀ Stammering for a beat, a flush of red after the former Warbler wasted no time reacquainting the musician with his witty banter, he continued.Ā āI see some things havenāt changed.āĀ The way he smiled was full of a nostalgia for the ghost of a feeling that crept closer with every word.Ā āI mean..Ā Yeah. Sure.Ā Iām off the clock.Ā A drink would be great..āĀ Ā
Still awestruck that this was truly happeningāhe stood up from the piano bench barely taking his bewildered stare off Sebastian, the shorter of the pair knocked into the bench before skirting around it with a frustrated huff and motioning to the bar.Ā Ā āNot that it isnāt great to see you.Ā It is.Ā But..Ā I donāt get it.Ā Here came the question that was impossible to hold in.Ā People like Sebastian?Ā Just randomly ending up here?Ā What were the odds?Ā Outside of movies, that is.Ā ā..Why are you here?ā
( sms : blaine ) I was young. Iād really only ever had a whole bunch of straight neanderthals to work with.Ā ( sms : blaine ) At least I didnāt make a fool out of myself in public.Ā ( sms : blaine ) Or get anyone fired.Ā ( sms : blaine ) š ( sms : blaine )Ā Youāve got this.Ā
( mssg Ā» kurt | sent )Ā Iām not judging you for anything.Ā You were adorable.Ā My only regret is I donāt have pictures of some of them.Ā Because they were priceless. ( mssg Ā» kurt | sent )Ā Except, you know, in front of the girls from Crawford and a few stunned Warblers who were not ready for your level of sexy to grace their presence.Ā You were lucky so many of them were just as distracted making sure they were on point that they didnāt notice. ( mssg Ā» kurt | sent )Ā Hey!Ā That was an accident!!!Ā I didnāt know heād get fired! ( mssg Ā» kurt | sent )Ā God.Ā That feels like so long ago, doesnāt it?Ā Do you ever miss that?Ā How much simpler things were back then?Ā I do.. ( mssg Ā» kurt | sent )Ā With your vote of confidence?Ā IāveĀ āgot anythingā Iām aiming for.Ā š
Admittedly, the journalist felt a jolt of confidence-boost struck her, having never come across a performer that was actually AWARE she would be covering the show. Ten out of ten times, she would only be heard of after having approached the performers herself to ask for a statement with which to enhance her article.Ā āIām the writer,ā she confirmed, raising a shoulder.Ā
āFriend of a friend, yeah.ā Accepting the implicit invitation, she set aside her instrument, turned off her equipment and set it neatly in a corner before taking a seat on the edge of the stage.Ā āHa, youāre just saying thatĀ ācause you know Iām covering your show,ā she teased, if only to get him to loosen up after having been visibly affected by learning she would be writing about him.Ā āItās not a big deal, actually, Iām just a part-time performer. I tried getting her to grant my band and I the chance to play here, like a one-time-only kinda thing, but⦠you know how it is, sometimes your style just clashes with the placeās crowd. Itās all good.āĀ
āI gotta say that meeting you before the show is a little bit of an oddity.Ā This never happens.Ā Like.Ā Ever.Ā Iām not sure whether to be more at ease now that weāve talked and are getting to know one another.Ā Or if I should be even more on my toes,ā he grinned at her only half-joking but it was a way to further crack the ice and if he had to express a small bit of anxiousness over venturing into foreign territory at the expense of himself?Ā Why not.Ā At least they were talking and laughing.Ā Rather than trying to fill up gaps of awkward silence with conversation that had nothing to do with nothing.
āYou know?Ā Iāve always been under the belief that in a place like this,ā his brow arched and he lifted his hand from the table top so he could gesture at the bar around them with a twirl of his pointer finger,Ā āThe performer dictates the crowd.Ā Should never be the other way around.Ā Not that I am saying how they should run their business.Ā Iāve just always leaned towards the more variety means more money sort of philosophy.āĀ He wasnāt the end-all-be-all of the music industry.Ā Not even by a small shot, in his opinion.Ā Only building up his career both in New York City and the newest adventure of being out on the road with his own music.Ā However, heād been in enough bars, theaters, venues and flash from the past theme parks to think he knew enough to say with a sound like hers?Ā Itād be a shame not to be known as that place where it all began.Ā āOnce again, rudeness seems to have won over today,ā a sheepish, self-chiding smile curled the edges of his lips as offered her his hand.Ā āIām Blaine but you knew that.Ā Whatās your name again?Ā How long have you been a journalist?āĀ Ā
TELL US YOUR FAVORITE QUOTES FROM YOUR CHARACTER. GIVE US AN IDEA OF WHO THEY ARE BY FIVE THINGS THEYāVE SAID. REPOST ā NOT REBLOG!
1.Ā āI just wanna make art and help people.ā 2.Ā āSometimes if you want to make change, you gotta make a little noise.ā 3.Ā āI donāt know if itās all the bird talk…but Iām getting a little turned on.ā 4.Ā āPrejudice is just ignorance.ā 5.Ā āTrust me.Ā When I was in The Warblers, sneaking on the stage the night before a show was tradition.Ā We had other traditions, but I canāt really speak about them.ā
Heās not blind to it, not anymore, Barry had remained oblivious both on accident and by choice. And he was at fault for the state they were in now, that much he will admit. The speedster had kept a distance from Blaine, while they found each otherā he never stopped running. Being with him at first was amazing, but as Barryās life became more dangerous. Distance. His soulmate was kept at a distance. It was putting a strain on the both of them emotionally, and it needed to stop. It had to. Barry⦠Barry always wanted to find the one he was meant to be with, always thought it was Iris till she met Eddie. Platonically, the two matched, but romantically. Someone else for the both of them. Then he met Blaine, and the world was so much brighter. Smile gone, and his heart aches. Because he soulmate thinks heās a problem, he was never a problem, it was Barry. This was his fault.
āBlaine,ā brows furrowed, lips pursed and squeezes his hand tightly.Ā āBlaine, you are not a problemā never. This is my fault, Iām the problem here I should have never.ā Takes a small breath, resting his forehead against the others and nudged their noses together.Ā āIāmā¦.Iām SCARED of losing you, of you getting hurt that Iāve been pushing you away,ā shuts his eyes tightly. Look what heās done, he caused him pain and worry that Blaine didnāt deserve at all. Due to his lack of expressing his emotions, the fear of losing a loved one, abandonment, and failure.Ā āIām sorry⦠Blaine, Iām really sorryā¦ā He had to fix this. Had to.
Blaine wanted to believe the promise.Ā It was a hope that came from deep down inside that heād been hanging onto throughout the ups and downs and tilted sideways heās been through while waiting for the other to give them and fate a chance.Ā Even though how everything turned out once heād found the person he was meant to be with wasnāt anywhere close to how he planned it to be?Ā Barry made him feel things that he couldnāt ignore.Ā Made every day without him that went by feel like something was missing.Ā Like it was never complete and he was shutting out the world and going to sleep with something left undone.Ā Or that he was missing a home he never quite set foot in yet but knew was out there, somewhere, waiting for him.
Foolishness wasnāt something he considered himself completely exempt from having in abundance from time to time.Ā Heās made mistakes in the past due to that very thing.Ā Years have gone by and heās tried to learn.Ā To guard himself more.Ā Because he knew he had to.Ā There was always the threat of feeling too much and having nothing come back.Ā Because when that happened?Ā He had only himself to blame, right?Ā Caution.Ā Hopeful caution.Ā Thatās what he felt now.Ā Warily studying the man in front of him before going perfectly still at the apology, Blaine was at a loss for words as his eyes softened and his face fell.Ā āNo..āĀ Words, Blaine.Ā USE THEM!Ā Ā āDonāt be sorry.Ā Your feelings matter.Ā Your reasons matter.Ā Youāre not gonna lose me, though.Ā I promise.Ā Because I feel like I keep losing you every day and Iād never..āĀ Do that to you.Ā Ā āNo sorries.Ā Let me show you how you Iām not going anywhere?Ā Can we just..try that?ā
( mssg Ā» blaine | deleted) Hey, Killer. Long time no see. Saw you checked in on Facebo what the fuck ( mssg Ā» blaine | deleted) Hey, Killer. Long time no see. Little birdy told me you were in the area, whatāre you doing on the West Coast? Concrete jungle bore you already, or did Kurt finally drive you aw ( mssg Ā» blaine | deleted) Hey, Killer. Long time no see. Saw your insta last night, West Coast suits you. You should stay awhile. You were five minutes away from my place. You still in town? ( mssg Ā» blaine | deleted) Hey, B. You still in town? ( mssg Ā» blaine | deleted) You didnāt have to come to Los Angeles to see that billboard, Anderson. My agent told me itād be going live in TS next month for the new CK campaign. Pictures really donāt do me justice, you should just come see in person. ( mssg Ā» blaine | sent ) Youāre better than Tourist Los Angeles, Killer. Saw your Insta this morning. If youāre still in town, Iām going to be insulted if you donāt actually let me show you around. And if on the off chance that doesnāt hook you, I know the best karaoke bar and dim sum joint in this entire state, donāt let me down.š ( mssg Ā» blaine | sent ) If you say no, know that Iām just going to assume youāve gotten a littleĀ flat over the years and donāt want to ruin your rep.
( mssg Ā» sebastian | sent )Ā Oh wow. Hey!Ā You saw that post?Ā Yeah, Iām still in town.Ā Iāll be here for another two weeks.Ā Part business, part pleasure. ( mssg Ā» sebastian | sent )Ā Sorry.Ā Wow.Ā I canāt believe you messaged me.
( mssg Ā» sebastian | sent )Ā It mightāve been a while since we last spoke or saw one another.Ā But!Ā You know what will never change?Ā My love for both of those things.Ā Itād be horrible shame to miss the best of either one āin the entire stateā according to Sebastian Smytheās standards. ( mssg Ā» sebastian | sent )Ā Flat?Ā Never.Ā Or.Ā I donāt think so?Ā You can be the judge of that in person, I guess?Ā When are you free?